Adam Sapphire @AdamZivojnovich and Agent Price @Bigaimw perform songs from Chapter X: In Defense of Heaven on Earth. Special thanks to John the Fox @Johnmotorfox for all the awesome beats ;)
Only you would ask me about that, lol… um, they’re still there, same as ever
So I’ve been feeling pretty down lately. And who else could cheer me up as well as my big brother? I shot him an email (yes, I still use my email) asking him for some support, and what I expected to receive was a few short wise words or a quote he got in a fortune cookie.
What I got, I completely did not expect. He sent me nothing short of a monologue, worthy of being in a play or movie. It practically made me cry of happiness.
Here’s what he wrote:
[in response to a plea for help with my anger issues]
"Hmm… Well, I’m just not really angry about stuff anymore… what did I change?…I don’t know, you can’t change yourself, that’s the thing…you just have to accept it…and maybe one day you’ll look back at all the shit that pissed you off and say, well…I already lived through something worse than this before… Then instead of getting mad about whatever, you’ll just go…eh…who gives a shit. Learn to use your anger for something positive, or just (…) smoke some weed, it should be legal anyway… Heh.
This may sound cliche but when I was a teenager everything going on around me seemed really important but now it’s like, who gives a shit? People fucking worry too much…
You never really change, you just gain experience and perspective and you modify yourself accordingly.
You’ll find that same force that drives you crazy can be a tool, sometimes it’s the push you need to do something great.
Really, sometimes tapping in that rage, that energy, warrior spirit or whatever can be a good thing.
You just have to learn how to embrace it and not let it destroy you.
You know bi-polar people are some of the most creative people in the world. I know, I wouldn’t trade it for anything, if anything I feel more alive, and I draw from it for creative inspiration.
You can try to change who you are, hide your feelings away…try to be normal. I guess that’s what most people do…
I see an infinite amount of potential in you, I mean it…
I wish I could be there for you.
Really, the main thing about being bi-polar is just accepting the fact that you’re gonna get upset or mad about shit, and just learn to deal with it, and just worry about keeping the people you love and care about happy, and fuck what anybody else thinks… You’ll never please everyone, and it’s always good to have a sense of humor about stuff and just enjoy when you’re happy and manic.
Don’t let yourself become a slave to your own emotions, you have the power to react to a situation however you choose, just remember you have all the power, you tell your body what to do, not the other way around…
I hope this is helpful, it’s kinda random.”
No, it was beautiful. And I hope anyone having a bad day that read this can take something away from it, too.
Brother dear, if you wish that I take this down I will. If you don’t want me to, you better reblog it, or I will cut you. :DD Gotta love me. (:
She said she’d cut me if i didn’t reblog this, lol :P
Listen/download: Our Father’s War by Adam Sapphire
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Listen/download: Sapphire Blue by Adam Sapphire
Listen/download: In Defense of Heaven on Earth by Adam Sapphire
Listen/download: Modern Wizardry by Adam Sapphire
Listen/download: Fighting Some Kind Of Giant Monster From Space by Adam Sapphire
Listen/download: Sam, You Know Heaven’s Closer Than You Think by Cyclonebeat
Listen/download: Rage, Quit. by Adam Sapphire
Listen/download: JR Randall’s Last Journal Entry by John the Fox